Thinking Deep Thoughts

It's difficult to think that this might be my last summer here in Blacksburg. On the one hand I'm ready to go; on the other hand, I confess I'm scared about what the future holds. So much in my life has not turned out according to plan. I thought I'd be the mother of a big family full of little ones at this point. Instead I'm about to complete my ph.d., ending a third marriage, and do not have even one little one. Never thought anybody would call me "Dr." I could be anywhere this time next year. Though I've always embraced the unknown, with warm, loving arms, this time I am frightened.